Cosmetic surgery consultation & weight update

On Friday I had a consultation booked for half 1 with The Hospital Group. Unfortunately me and Mr.A had an argument over money (as usual!) , he didn't get home from work in time to take me anyway :-( The good news is, I am booking another appointment for the Friday coming up and will definitely be going to this one! Mr.A was worried I would be forced into going ahead with the procedures and handing over the cash, he knows how convincing people can be when they want to make a "sale". Money is a big worry for us at the moment but I explained to him that there is no harm in me getting opinions and using this consultation as research, and have assured him I won't be "forced" into saying yes. 

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Weight update...

I have lost a total of two pounds in the last two weeks :-) I am really pleased as I wasn't expecting to lose anything at all. With all the over eating at Christmas and lack of exercise the week before last, I was positive I would gain weight, but no! I am feeling much better now I'm back on track, hopefully the weight loss will continue and I will reach my goal of  9 and a half stone. 

I'd like your input

I've added a little poll to the right hand side to find out what you would like to see more of on Dragon Mommy. So please vote, it only takes a second and would mean alot to me :-)

On a different note, I have my consultation with The Hospital Group this afternoon. I'm not entirely sure I am going to go though. I really want to but Mr.A is having worries. He thinks I shall be forced into signing a contract and handing over the dosh (which we don't actually have at the moment!). We were looking into getting a loan but because of issues with our ex electricity supplier our credit history isn't very good. There are finance options with The Hospital Group and other cosmetic surgery clinics but again we are not sure they would accept us. Mr.A has been stressing over it and it has caused tension between us, which is the last thing I want. I've left him a message asking him to let me know if we are still going or not. Personally I don't see the harm in going and getting an opinions and some idea of cost.  If we do go, I shall be sure to post about it when I come home. 

When plastic surgery goes too far

As you may know I am looking into getting a tummy tuck and breast implants (see post here) I have being doing my research and obviously looked into surgery going wrong. That got me thinking about celebrities that have had plastic surgery and gone way too far. The obvious one that sprung to mind was Michael Jackson but we all know what he looked like so theres not much point in me posting a photo of him. But here are some others, I'm sure you will be familiar with most of them...

Donatella Versace-

Jocelyn Wilderstein-

Latoya Jackson-

Pete Burns-

Priscilla Presley-

Leslie Ash-

Alicia Douvall (I couldn't find a before picture anywhere!)-

Victoria Beckham-

Tara Reid- 

Shoe fiasco!

Good morning little dragons, I'm not having much look when it comes to ordering things online. First the dress I wanted was out of stock, then the boots I ordered for my birthday. I ordered these from Missguided.co.uk at the beginning of January...

...only to be told (after I'd paid for them!) that they were out of stock in my size and they had refunded me. I was rather annoyed buy luckily managed to find the exact same pair on Chockersshoes.co.uk So I quickly ordered them. That was over a week ago and I still haven't had them. I woke up this morning to an email from Chockers telling me they were out of stock and were still trying to get me a pair. I've asked them for a refund. I can't believe both times I have ordered these boots and paid for them, only to be told a whole WEEK later that they aren't available. I am so annoyed! 

When the refund comes through I am going to order these from Missguided instead...

Hopefully they will be in stock and shipped out to me ASAP!

Which pair do you prefer?

On a different note... I have been continuing my cosmetic surgery research and have booked a consultation with The Hospital Group in Newcastle this Friday. I shall be sure to let you know what happens/ what is said.

Plastic surgery, your views?

I am unhappy with my body. Very unhappy. So unhappy that sometimes I can't look in the mirror. When I do I get an overwhelming urge to cut off the bits I don't like. Of course I wouldn't but I can't stand the sight of certain parts of my body. My stomach and breasts to be precise.

Pregnancy, childbirth and yo yo dieting have destroyed my body. I have the classic "baby belly"- wrinkly and saggy. No amount of exercise can shift the drooping skin, believe me I've tried. My boobs have lost their pert-ness (if that's even a word?!). I have stretch marks, faded but still visible. My husband thinks I'm beautiful but he HAS to say that doesn't he? 

Last night I broke down. I stupidly looked in the mirror wearing only my underwear. The tears wouldn't stop, I was screaming and shouting at myself, telling myself how disgusting I am. I rang Mr.A hoping he would tell me I am beautiful and make me feel better. Of course he told me how beautiful I am but that didn't stop me from crying. No matter how many times I am told I am pretty/have a nice figure etc... it doesn't change my perception of myself, it never will. Then my husband said something that DID make me stop crying...

"Next year I'm going to pay for you to have a boob job and tummy tuck. If that's what you want I will pay for it, I just want you to be happy." Of course I laughed it off, we had spoken about surgery before and how I would love to get something done but it had never gone any further than that. But it stuck in my mind... why not? It WOULD make me happy I know it would...but then I would probably start to hate other parts of my body and become unhappy again. Don't get me wrong, I know plastic surgery is a BIG deal, not something to be taken lightly. I know things can go wrong and its not a quick fix to pure happiness. If I did decide to go ahead and have a breast augmentation and abdominoplasty I would make sure I did my research and went to a reputable clinic. I am seriously thinking about it. I know we should all love our bodies and learn to like what we have but I can't. I have tried and failed, miserably. My body has become an obsession. Looking in the mirror makes me feel physically sick. I don't want to feel that way anymore...

What are your views on plastic surgery? Is there anything you would have done? Maybe you have had surgery, I'd be very interested to hear your story. 
I understand some of you may read this and totally disagree, probably even judge me and that's fine, you're entitled to your opinion.